A Little Lost Lover

May 28, 2012

Happy Memorial Day

I feel so incredibly blessed to have been raised in a military family.

The experiences and childhood I was able to have are what has shaped me to be who I

today.

Being raised in a different country and being constantly surrounded by different races and cultures is such a precious gift as a child. The ability to be raised with pure tolerance and appreciation for differences rather then the blatant and detrimental racism people without the knowledge and understanding of acceptance of different cultures harbor.

I hope one day that my children will have the same chance that I did.

I love you Mom and Dad.

May 28, 2012

A bit depressed last night/this morning.

I think it’s because I’m disappointed with myself.

Currently have a love/hate relationship with the bars.

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May 25, 2012

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Rilo Kelly - A Better Son/Daughter

Sometimes in the morning I am petrified and can’t move
Awake - but cannot open my eyes
And the weight is crushing down - on my lungs
I know I can’t breathe
And I hope someone will help me this time
And your mother’s still calling you insane and high
Swearing it’s different this time
And you tell her you give in to the demons that possess her
And that God never blessed her insides

Then you hang up the phone
And feel badly for upsetting things
Crawl back into bed to dream of a time
When your heart was open wide
And you loved things just because
Like the sick and the dying

And sometimes when you’re on
You’re really fucking on
And your friends they sing along
And they love you
But the lows are so extreme
That the good seems fucking cheap
And it teases you for weeks in its absence
But you’ll fight and you’ll make it through
You’ll fake it if you have to
And you’ll show up for work with a smile
And you’ll be better
And you’ll be smarter
And more grown up
And a better daughter or son
And a real good friend
And you’ll be awake
You’ll be alert
You’ll be positive though it hurts
And you’ll laugh and embrace all your friends
And you’ll be a real good listener
You’ll be honest
You’ll be brave
You’ll be handsome and you’ll be beautiful
You’ll be happy

Your ship may be coming in
You’re weak but not giving in
To the cries and the wails of the valley below
And your ship may be coming in
You’re weak but not giving in
And you’ll fight it
You’ll go out fighting all of them